master makes me sad

I know I have insecurities but master makes them come out way more. I weigh 114 lbs. I'm 5 ft 3in. He tells me to work out all the time and how much better I would look if I did this and this workout. He talks about other girls being hot and it breaks my heart. I never say or do anything of the sort to him. I'm so dedicated to my master. When guys come up to me at the gym I always think my master is way more sexier and buffer and more beautiful. My heart aches. I watched him stare at another girl dancing while I'm in the background so sad..