officially cancelled

Michael just gave me the no go on san Diego. He said he should be coming to LA but he may not be staying at my parents house which is fine. Atleast he told me ahead of time. It just makes me sad how always unsure if we will see eachother. When we do see eachother we have to sleep early and wake up early. Be mature and responsible because he has work in the mornings. I know in the long run its going to be okie and its all for the best. But I would enjoy some quality kitty time. Michael and I have only known eachother a month and a week at most. I feel like its been way longer. In this same spiral routine of we are going to spend time together or not. I just got off the phone with Michael and he said not to get a ticket because he is driving a uhaul truck on Sunday so he wouldn't be able to take me home. I said I could take a train home but he said its too much money. Again I'm left here alone... on my blog about dating an older career oriented family oriented surf and snowboarder. I said its okie and I understand and that it happens when we are in a long distance relationship. I also said ill see him when he has time and that everything is fine. He says he will stay at my parents house on sunday but in all reality its never a for sure thing. The best thing for me to do is try to be understanding and let Michael know how I'm feeling by txting him a simple :< sad face. Maybe he will get the hint. When I told him its okie and ill see him when he has time he said Aww... now I feel bad. Not trying to do it on purpose and I'm sure he doesn't mean to hurt me on purpose either. It just happens. Meow meows just a little lonely. Left here writing about what its like to be a sheltered 21 year old Asian female with an alter ego as a submissive slave who is dating the older American boyfriend from the Bronx.